Bereavement

Also very sudden - at 2pm we were having a typical conversation, and by 5pm she was gone. Coming up on the year anniversary, and your phrase "I'm okay and hanging on by a thread at the same time" couldn't be more descriptive of how it feels. Same for "He's gone. He's everywhere". Try to remember that you aren't alone, don't hesitate to ask for help when you need it, and grieve in your own way and on your own timetable.