Mental Health Support

My hubby is also struggling with my lack of energy.

I keep thanking him for his patience and am trying to do at least 1 or more things a day to SHOW my gratitude vs saying it.

Today he wants to watch a movie with me. I have been hiding out at the PC a lot in the past week, including today.

So he gets to pick the movie and I will be there with him fully.

He and I are both in pain, him from nephropathy and me from doing physical labor for the last 5 years or so, lifting up to 50 pounds repeatedly. I think I have a torn ligament in my right shoulder by the way the pain happens. But I'm not a doctor, so I should just go get it looked at.

He goes to massage about every other week and I buy massage/acupuncture packages from a neighbor and long time friend, that I use in my moments of greatest need. Right now my carpal tunnel is acting up because I am doing fine hand work 8 hours a day. In the morning my hands are on fire until I stretch and shake the blood into them. I could take ibuprofen and it helps, but I forget. I could wear my wrist bands at night and it would help, but I can't remember where I put them.

Anyway, do whatever you can to help your pain so you can maybe be open to feeling better things.

Someday, if the depression ever lifts, I hope to see your joyful post here.

I also DO actually take Wellbutrin and before that, the world was always defeating me. I could NOT turn off the negative messages and just powered through my days using my anger as a weapon against my depression. I called it a "positive mind-F***" to use whatever I could AGAINST the Depression which was my enemy. That's exhausting. But it worked to get me through one day or another where I wanted to give up.

I also went to 12 Step groups for about 30 years. ACA takes anyone who had a dysfunctional family life. Covid disrupted that and I need to get back. It basically empowers me to take 1 hour a week to think about myself, listen to the ideas of others and leave my baggage at the door and start over a lot. One day at a time, one minute at a time are great concepts.

Take care, you.

By your age watching Exorcist, I may be older than you. Not sure I can call you Old Man any more.