I'm just having such a hard time with the pain. [View all]

Nothing is working. Not the percocet or the morphine. I feel like it's making me crazy. I do a lot of deep breathing and visualization, but it's so pervasive. I'm completely shut in. I can't even go downstairs. I have to keep my leg elevated all the time. Oddly, I'm glad I live alone. I'm all set up upstairs with a mini fridge/freezer and microwave and toaster oven, but I don't feel like eating much of anything. I'm waiting to get into the pain clinic at either Fletcher Allen in Burlington VT or Dartmouth Hitchcock in Hanover NH, but that won't happen (even with the priority referral for another 10 days to two weeks.

I feel like I'm hanging on by my fingertips.