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I am going to the police the day I can and filing harassment, misconduct, malpractice etc allegations.
Yes I DIY my mental health with medical marijuana and modafinil from a small pharmacy known to my family.

But this was a parasitic waste of my life. I am not a gamer or stand up comic etc.

I don’t have very fascistic instincts not because I am filled with love etc. But you have to be a tiresome, strenuous sort of person to go around chasing some creeps and trying to bring them to justice (ffs these societies are a damn joke) like some Charles Bronson type.
And that sounded like a lot of very boring and pointless work.

But there are lies in a lot of what passes for both left and right. It is simply not true that all this boosts productivity or makes work more honest or better. It does make it more painful and yeah.
On the flip side there is nothing left about any of this. And had the parts of the left I consider left (DU or Yasha, Ketcham, Robinson etc seen this), I can guarantee that the only discomfort you would feel is because you live in the US and don’t understand.

I lost my mom to this vile greed and avarice and it is a rape of the psyche snd one’s home and life daily. This type of growthism is a disease.
This is not an abstract debate. I need to work on my field in spite of the lack of prospects and everything rather than keep doing the dreariest math in the world which is staring at a collection of douchey creeps and wondering how they may all somehow cancel out and go and annoy just about anyone else.

I can never lose my sense of humor entirely. God does one need it. But I laugh that I may not weep.
I think this is called “finding one’s voice” and I see stupid people. Stupid people who have no actual interest in anything but..
Yeah I genuinely do not consider DU the typical contemporary internet as it is ownership is not a Zuckerberg and it is moderated.

EarlG’s job or those of most of the people I follow makes me appreciate how much easier science is. Basic research that is.
Not handling humans. That is hard and thankless work as far as I can tell.

I hope any local Hemant Kappana analogous techies mired with the rest of these creeps manage to bring them to justice.

There is a distinction between a creepy bogus elite fraud (e.g. V.S.Ramachandran) or charlatan and a human who needs grace. This is mostly the former two types. These are some of the most unsympathetic people anywhere.

Everything is finite and making more room for these absolute douchebags/creeps comes at the cost of sacrificing much nicer people, like my mom. And that has angered me more than I can allow myself to feel.

This is not the US. I could weather this because I am at least middleclass.

But this pap is dressed up as left or right as is needed by creepy people shilling worthless crap without accountability and hoping to blame some clunkware. And there are humans who know perfectly well what they are doing and did all along.

This is not cute. This is a country with a lot of very real violence against women. Too much of the glosses over physical reality. Very few women here except the utterly disgraceful women in this would fail to get why this is creepy in context.

This is too much of a situation where people can bend and twist things to fit their bs. And it is fatiguing and daft.
A lot of the time I object it is that something will..not..work.
I never said that I am an awesome scientist with amazingly healthy habits etc. But a solution should not be worse than the problem it claims to fix and where it is blatantly about some cheap and sleazy data miners going “Oh hey here are all the volunteers! They want to do this or they are crazy!”
This defies belief and no actual human who is not a total sleazebag would buy this.

The worst torture of all is trying to fathom what must be the logic if any. I have never done this in my defense. My thought process is more alogn the lines of well.. “well yeah I do like to get wasted. This sucks. We all have our vices and those creeps are even worse.”
I mean I am not expecting to win any medals for that. But it isn’t this delusional.

I tried to ignore the constant bullshit in this and try to keep it so that I pay for my vices but not yours and I tried to ignore this because it is angering to see people who have no self awareness and no clue about how far you can push things and hope that ..Yeah.

The reason I take a shine to specific lefties whether it is EarlG or most scientists and doctors or Yasha, Ketcham, Zitron, Robinson but never Vox or Jacobin, is that in addition to humanism and decency there is also common sense.
I avoid the right (except honest conservatives irl) or EA etc because it does not even seem like good conservativism/philosophy which would be more like Nicholas Carr.

I don’t understand the math, art, science or logic here. And what I see in all the lefties and honest people one sees (poor or well off) is eventual distrust and that is as it should be.

Whatever it is this is bs. Today I saw something on Marina Bolotnikova’s site about “anti growthist disease”, this noxious Yimby trash and yesterday a turd called Brian Keegan blaming Paul Ehrlich for Trump’s immigration policies. These people (the yimby not Bolotnikova) are full of shit and they should be avoided and that seems to be the type of person this is full of.

This has no future. It is cannibalistic and parasitic and I am going to the police the day I can and reporting the whole thing here in India in this state as a crime. And my medical mj co, doctors etc will be fine as will I.
I don’t buy this bs.

I had a strong core of common sense which is why I am exiting this wary and more cynical though not generally. With many of you I have only the kind of affectionate mockery that comes from having done some of those things and learnt the hard and awful way.
Maybe I am not more cynical. Hell I may even be less so.

But I already did this. Stumbling around inside this while seeing the confusion and chaos the worst people out there exploit and good luck!

It will be rough. But I am doing well and going to the real authorities the day I can. I consider people like Lina Khan or even Brian Driscoll authorities though not authoritarian.
Who is supposed to send Sam something..That EA guy etc to prison so he doesn’t rob retirees blind?

I like the local police and the cyberpolice as a rule. This is not a place that is that safe for women and what I have seen is not art or science. It is blatant disregard for humans who are not total sleazebags.

And I will go offline because as another DUer pointed out about swampy soups of mixed rants, it is not that it is unsafe (there is stuff that is unsafe, but that is coming from elsewhere). But it is confusing. Because there is nothing more confusing about the world we are in right now than wanting info after you get just enough info to unsettle you, but not finding anything personally useful.

And now I see lots of people with both more and less info fumbling and yeah.
It is time. I am going offline to work and I am filing complaints the day I can and I wish you all luck out there.

What I can do I will. But I have to finish a paper and do things a specific way because I really don’t feel very healthy when I don’t work in my field. And when I do, one feels reluctant to do anything but donate and vote. But I am over that.

But as malicious as this was (entirely) the one piece of learning I gained is that sometimes you have to do more than vote and donate silently and that is why I admired Lina Khan so much.

I will go about it more minimalistically going fwd. Less sound and fury signifying nothing.

But I did want to comment so it is clear I am not a jerk as society needs fewer defenses of jerks not more. But you do see after a while that these guys really are a menace and a nuisance and I would like to spare other people the misery of finding out first hand.
I am pretty laidback. I sort of tried to bluster and hope these mindnumbingly stupid creeps would show some signs of sanity beyond pretending it is all a misunderstanding or tech.

I shall end reposting Alison Taylor’s piece again. I really recommend it as Ai and all this trash have accelerated the dynamics she outlined. That is making life worse for every honest human out there while shitting on women’s rights extra hard. It has to be especially lousy for the worse off women.
There is no way this is not be a huge fuck you to women far worse off than me to and just so these creepy “boys can be boys”.

I do believe and support women. But I never cared for this sort of shit or that Taylor person or that Beyonce person. I have no patience with this garbage:

https://www.salon.com/2025/11/06/alls-fair-and-the-problem-with-kim-kardashian/

“All’s Fair” and the problem with Kim Kardashian
Ryan Murphy's latest muse can't act, but her high influence in our misinformation age is what's truly depressing
By MELANIE MCFARLAND

https://time.com/6190225/feminist-industrial-complex-roe-v-wade/

The Failure of the Feminist Industrial Complex
Charlotte Alter

This bullshit is too toothless and lame to take on the serious creepiness and misogyny of these corrupt, creepy, brainless and sexist douchebags running the show along with their tacky enablers.

I take women’s rights seriously. These guys grate on me as all intensely stupid and regressive people do.

I often the language that has unfortunately become associated with a type of insipid left of center. It is ironically also very much for the most parasitic and sleazily growthist parts of this corrupt and spectacularly broken status quo.

There is no need for jargon where it seems to accomplish no purpose and confuses an already confused populace further - hey we have all been there.

The actual voice inside my head tends to be a bit gruff. I am annoyed enough with myself for having navigated this drivel this ineptly. That is why I am never bullshitting when I thank the left. Because the left is too important to confuse with pmc class jargon that uses 10 words where one would suffice.

Even in science the best scientists explain things in ways that are comprehensible to the layman. And still you cannot always easily explain complex mathematical equations (actual math not creep math).

So this sentimental yet sleazy drivel annoys me as I don’t think it is conservative to communicate in plain english.

So much of it reminds me of this:

https://www.theguardian.com/news/2017/nov/23/from-inboxing-to-thought-showers-how-business-bullshit-took-over

From inboxing to thought showers: how business bullshit took over
This article is more than 8 years old
Photograph: Guardian Design Team
Vacuous management-speak is easily laughed off – but is there a real cost to talking rubbish? By André Spicer

I am pleased when the explicitly humanist left (Nikiforuk, Greaves etc.) do dissect dreck.
Without contempt for flawed humanity, but not giving a pass to endless drivel either. The psychiatric bs and this bs on my street are malicious.

But to be hobbled further if someone saw my profanity laden rants..

In my defense even under stress I have never said anything racist or phobic. But I have accused various institutions (probably inaccurately, strictly speaking) of trading sexual favors for lucre and used expletives associated with reproductive organs (both male and female) and I won’t anymore as that attracts the wrong crowd either way.

But I did feel genuinely bad for many of the Epstein girls, especially the anonymous tomboy.

And that is why I am filing sexual harassment and other allegations as endemic to the whole.
I am sure anyone honest will be fine and I don’t really want to promote something that is a backdoor violation of the fourth amendment in any sane way. Nor enable this trash I see here.

It reminds me of this and pretty much nothing else:

What do Corrupt Firms Have in Common? Red Flags of Corruption in Organizational Culture
Authors
Alison Taylor, Business for Social Responsibility (BSR)


A growth fetish without any real products or services or science and only creepiness and harassment. This is the behavior of superfit cancer cells.

https://breastcancernow.org/about-us/research-news/new-research-reveals-how-cancer-cells-pretend-to-be-super-fit-to-survive-and-spread

That reality show stars do better than doctors and scientists in the hard sciences in this society is telling. And a tonne of social engineering and lie detectors/emotion manipulation flies as basic research in biology, medicine stalls or is handed over to Zuckerberg’s moll to administer rather than Dr. Collins. It tells you all you need to know.

In my case, I am happy to use my own resourceuse to complete my own work. But not while tolerating this worthless and endless trash.

I am going to the police the day I can as an open marijuana user who DIYs it with a modafinil supplement sans a prescription. But I am not enabling this garbage.

Thanks to all in the DU community. You have truly helped me. And I will be back post paper and this drivel.

And thanks especially to my friend Rhiannon1866. What is awesome about DU is that it is a safe community.

It has always been confusing irl in this locally as except the people one meets, who are usually cool, it is hard to tell. But going by how it has gone, I would be shocked if it wasn’t mostly the Ragy Thomas/Palathingal/Shalab Kumar/V.S.Ramachandran/M J Akbar/Kanury Rao type bts. They make up a small segment of society overall but they are disproportionately represented inside opaque creep fests without much serious oversight.

The end
I will weigh in when I have unflattering input with a point I back. I have come out of a hostage situation and am pushing back.
Taking me hostage and making me sound like a complete fucking idiot for 14 motherfucking years and bloody months. Unfuckingbelievable.

Hey Prof Hennessy, I don’t blame you for being a humanist misanthrope (autocorrect suggests misandrist..which seems as usual pegged for permanent direness like your usual). I like to live far from stupidity and the direness it brings which is why your nightmarish math..Couldn’t you build processors or something at I don’t know Susquehanna or something? Change the world! Real bright idea that professor..it is okay. Your “secret” is safe with me. I hate people too. I just can’t afford to do it that clunkily. One has to live with some of these brainless idiots who can just about be tolerated signalling mutually assured destruction if the behaviours and strategies of those whom I will be reporting to the police or filing allegations of misconduct and malpractice against, are repeated.
I don’t even know who they are but some day I will. Not that easy to destroy information. It lives on in some form without tacky cottage industries of drivel.
These parasites local to me in India have yet to give up on nudge theory and I was not formally engaged in entrapment of the corrupt, undemocratic and misogynistic, but it is a role that fits.

Oh btw I am not a cat. I am shrill!!! It is not a bit and it is well deserved.
Sorry about the emails I sent. I thought stupidity was in fashion. But then I recollected that I am not fashionable. I have to go work on some research without oversight. I will never retract a goddamn piece of work or action etc.

I am apologetic to my main mentor, best friend, ex husband, posthumously my mom and my dad and maybe one other male scientist.
For the rest it is a wash even best case. Gratitude for not being stupid and nails on chalkboard is another matter.

I don’t exist to win popularity contests in Idiocracies. It is okay Prof Hennessy. At least you are not stupid. And you and I both know that in some ways that that is a more meaningful tribute than many you get from all the douchey sycophants you attract with your trashy Alphabet. I am the type that goes to the police professor. That is not good nor bad, but essential.

Don’t work with women who sellout women’s rights you brainless bloody clunkers. No one close to me would. The risks you take are on worthless things. Cult or mob??!!!!!
Pathetic options..
Don’t attack me.

Last Edit: 11:20 am IST, April 9, 2026.
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