Sexual Assault Survivors Support

I’ve had them partially emerge and instantly slip away and re-suppress twice before permanently being reintegrated.

The triggers are practically impossible to predict with precision, and our biology can sometimes wrestle with itself… is it more advantageous to remember significant dangers or suppress it to get by?

Before ~age 25 give or take you’re much less able to make perfect judgements at the best of times, add in positions of authorities and other factors which impact judgement and there are a lot of ways you can become a victim. Some victims compensate by ‘passing it on’ while badly dealing with their own trauma as well.

Every situation needs to be assessed individually but if you’re a victim you’re a victim regardless of what you choose to do about that. There are people doing this all over, it’s never wrong to try to talk it out with others. You said it was consensual but with the age gap it’s more likely you had partially developed enough to function but not really consent with someone in that situation that much older and in a position of authority over you as an adolescent.