I 've done as much as I could do to heal [View all]

now its time to seek outside help in the form of a therapist . It won't be easy in L.A. or just about anyplace to find someone to talk to about being a male who was sexually abused by their mother. Not too many come forward enough to even tell another soul , I have blown many minds by telling people I was abused .The people ususally shut down and think I'm kidding or in the middle of some joke they don't get or like.......So after calling bout 15 shrinks with no call backs except for a few who immediately started talking money and or insurance in other words it felt like fast food -----give them the money then get your "food" food in my case that might save my life .

Theres a lot of shit you go thru thinking you're worthless because somebody messed with you ,you blot it out and it never gets better ----you dive into it with a doofus that should have gone into real estate and it can get worse.


What I'm asking is how do I even tell some shrink like person what is going on and if they can help when all they make me feel like is a pay check and see you next week bad sit com episode. tune in next week when the pain really kicks in.------oops how time has flown see you next week . I am scared and it hasn't even begun yet -----I have another 15 answer machines to call and then wait for an answer that so far has turned out to make me feel worse and less worthy. Screw it I made it this far whats another few weeks ?