Bereavement

Go easy on yourself, one day at a time, whatever you need to do. Such losses (I have had one) take years to process, and in my case became a part of me and my grief (mine!) an extension of my love for my lost one. No one can or should tell you where you need to be at, mentally or in terms of activities. Counseling helps at least in the sense that you get to tell your story, to one who is good at being a professional and sympathetic listener supporting you. Anyway please take care, self care, and pursue what you deem worthwhile. For me, doing some normal things, especially for others who needed my help (in workplace), provided a bit of a relief & perspective. Though I was impatient with petty concerns, for good reason.