Overwhelmed with more than I can cope with [View all]

Made the decision today to put Mom in hospice; she has late-stage dementia and is in a care home. She got COVID in Dec. despite being vaxed and boosted, and while in a quarantine wing fell out of bed and has terrible pain from her injuries and is so weak she's like a rag doll. I saw her briefly but they have COVID again so back in lockdown and I can't even see her; breaking my heart.

As if that's not enough, we had to put down one of our dogs a couple of months ago suddenly and now our younger dog got injured , is hopping around on 3 legs and may need surgery. Seeing the orthopedic surgeon Monday. No clue how to pay for it if surgery is needed and even the tests are expensive.

Then on Friday the seatbelt on my car broke; it's out of warranty and over $300 to repair.

We were supposed to go on vacation in April overseas -- a surprise gift from my kids who know how stressed I've been. I don't even want to go - worried i won't be here when Mom's time draws near and scared to leave the dog alone.

Plus my daughter just announced she's getting divorced; we adore our son-in-law and are heartbroken, this probably means no grandkids as she's in her mid-30s; and she's interviewing for a job thousands of miles away.

I'm running a nonprofit in challenging financial times and am just about at the end of my rope. Not suicidal or anything like that, just can't focus on anything, wind up playing solitaire for hours because i stare at the blank screen and can't get anything done that requires any concentration. Cry at night and have trouble sleeping anyhow -- because I also hvae a bad shoulder, probably a tear but i can't get through an MRI due to sinus issues - I can't lie flat. It's been hurting for a year now, tried everything including massage, chiro, acupuncture, physical therapy, pain rubs and a steroid shot which helped for two months but now it's worn off. Now and then I'll have a glass of wine just to sleep a few hours, but wake in the wee hours and usually can't get back to sleep. I can't take narcotics - my blood pressure crashes dangerously low and wouldn't want to get hooked on pain pills anyhow as my brother is addicted to them and I know how that goes.

My husband is not helpful, he's impatient and just makes things worse.

If not for a couple of good friends to go have day trips or go for walks with now and then i think I would go insane.

How else to cope with so much stress?