Ancient Wisdom and Pagan Spirituality

Always be with you.

I lost my dearest friend in life, my mentor in life and spirit, two years and three weeks ago. I still cry. I always will at some memories, good and hard. But I also realize that our relationship was the greatest gift of my life and to honor that I should keep the lessons learned in mind as I go forth and at my passing.

You friend sounds much life my friend, same approach to life though from much different origins. We all knew she was dying for some time and it took a while, she was with her daughter and husband, though, and they were able to to have the needed conversations, the expressions of love and caring, at home in the middle of a pandemic... a rarity at the time.

I was able to tell her that I loved her and cared with all my heart before she left and that meant a great deal for me. When she did pass, she let me know at that very time. I was in the middle of something when I had this overwhelming urge to go take a nap, so I did. I was in a dream state almost immediately, then transported to her bedroom where she died, I was behind her husband and daughter, the room was brightly sunlit. The hue of the light was and orangey-yellow, her favorite, she then sat up in bed, put her feet to the floor and stood up, fully dressed in a summer outfit of an orange/apricot plaid top and solid apricot capris. She stood up, and as if nobody else was there started toward the stairs. Suddenly we, the family and I, were at the bottom of the stairs near the front door watching her descend the stairs, grab a windbreaker from the coat-rack, walked out the door down the front walkway and into the light. Then I awoke and I knew.

And I see her sometimes but mostly I feel her in my heart whenever I get quiet enough to recognize her.

When Christine McVie passed, I was reminded of this song that says so much, I can't get through it without crying yet but it is also comforting in a time like this, so for you and your friend I offer you this and a big hug...