Religion

The "Church of God" schismed into two sects... I think it was after the first "Armageddon" prediction didn't pan out for them. My family went with the "less strict" church, but that was still bad enough. Luckily, the closest church of that sect was almost 2 hours from home, so we rarely went. Instead, my siblings and I were dragged to about every other church... except the Catholic church... every Sunday and Wednesday night. My siblings and I all went separate directions where religion was concerned. My brother eschewed all of it. My sister became Catholic (she married a Catholic). Me... I rejected all of Christianity and did the Seeker thing for years. Eventually, I stumbled on Paganism and immediately felt like I had come home. It wasn't all dogma and structure. But I will say I went through a lot of what you're talking about in the beginning. Was I damned myself to hell? What if I actually no longer believed in hell? Questions that kept me up all night at times. It's been over 40 years now, and I'm still happy and content with my choice. I've found more solace and comfort in this path than any other highly structured, authoritarian type religion. I figure these days, if there is a god out there, s/he's given up on us, and moved on elsewhere. How else to explain trump, bannon, etc.... These devils are a lot scarier to me now than anything the Christian church could throw at me.