Anybody here tonight? We lost our sweet baby girl dog on Wednesday. [View all]

I am wracked with grief tonight and unable to sleep. We had an in-home euthanasia so it would be easier on her, but I let them take her away to be cremated and I have never done that before. As the vet was leaving she said it would be 10 days to 2 weeks before we got her ashes back. I should have said NO right then, but we are both old and ill and unable to dig a grave. I realize now that we have friends and neighbors who would have helped do that.

I need the ritual of a funeral and burial for her. I have no closure, and neither does she. I even called the mobile vet tonight and left a message asking if we can get her body back. Keep the money. I just want her back! If it takes 2 weeks, where is she? In a freezer somewhere? I feel like I have let her down and not done the right thing at all. Is there anyone here tonight who can talk to me? The grief and remorse is unbearable. Help?