Mental Health Support

Sounds like you have no way but up. I worked at a treatment center in the 90's and some of the lab values, on especially on older folks, were way off the mark. Crazy high liver function numbers from drinking. They will reverse as you quit binging.
We gave our new patients an injection of vitamin B1 which depleted in the body from helping the liver detox. Chronic depletion leads to a dementia called Korsakoffs Syndrome. You have to be hardcore for a lot of years to get what they call "wet brain". Anyway that makes me think, you might help your energy level with a vitamin B supplement. The B vitamins help your nerves in general and B 12 has a role in energy and certain anemia. It could be a start?

Glad you are venting. Sometimes a person just needs a sounding board and not a lot of free advice. God, love ya. You must be intelligent, you are here at DU. Your politics are correct, the rest will fall into place.