Mental Health Support

Best I can do is remain functional when they sneak up on me like a mugger.

The worst thing is they are unpredictable. I can usually figure it out in hindsight, but I can't say to myself looking forward, "careful now, there's going to be trouble."

Some of it is hardcore PTSD. There's a street in Berkeley that sets me off, but only if it's dark and the air smells a certain way. That panic attack has slammed me hard twice, once when I was still dating my wife, and another time when I was visiting a friend. (Something bad once happened to me there.)

Others are more random than that, combinations of things, and not directly related to any particular place, situation or experience.