Today's my appointment at Oak Street and my anxiety is red-lining [View all]

This will be the 5th provider I've seen in 4 years. He's a new guy. And it's Oak Street's last chance. My first provider was wonderful, but she 'retired'. I suspect she actually left to go elsewhere. The 2nd left on maternity leave, and the 3rd was covering for her. For some reason, they assigned me to a 4th and she was a nightmare. She was callous, said a lot of inappropriate stuff and blew off my extreme anxiety as if I was making it up. I'd leave there feeling totally hopeless and usually curled up in bed when I get home. Maybe she just didn't like me and requested I be re-assigned.

I held off taking my anxiety medication until a few minutes ago (11:15) and my appointment is at 1. I figured that will give the anxiety med time to kick in.

If this guy isn't a fit, I'm pretty sure I'm just going to switch to telemedicine. The help I really need is being provided by my therapist and the PA who prescribes my mental health medications. I always leave there feeling uplifted and hopeful