Mental Health Support

not since i moved away in ‘80. so all they have is me of 60 yrs ago. which was me w undiagnosed epilepsy to boot.
they’re looking through a keyhole, and seeing dirty laundry on the floor, and filling in the blanks.

i’ve told them all, over and over, that i’m not mad, i dont hate them, i just dont have the bandwidth. they’re a drain. i do loathe my 1 bro, which is also based in childhood, but he has done nothing differently the few times i’ve seen/talked to him since. he’s in cali, so i rarely see him. but i have no beef w most of them. i miss the kids, but i dont miss the hassle of holidays and all that shit. it’s almost always a disappointment.

i admit i’m kinda bitter, but i’m kinda bitter about a lot of things. esp these days.
it rly is a low level issue. cuz i srsly can live w/o them, no prob. i can see it all shaking out at some point. sorta how irish families roll. but i def have bigger fish to fry.