Why is it so hard to post? [View all]

I post here in waves. I find it therapeutic and everyone has always been accepting and non-judgmental. But, when I do not post, it is due to embarrassment. I have always been an introvert. It is hard for me to open up. I have no close friends, only my husband - and even there I often feel distant. I am also a type "A" personality, which is why I am so good at my job as a scientist. But, imperfection, primarily in myself, is hard for me to accept.

I often feel the stigma of mental illness even though most of the people in my life are unaware of my problems. I find it very easy to discuss my daughter's bipolar, but not my own. How can I teach her to be accepting of herself, if I cannot be that way?

Sorry if this is rambling, but I need it this morning.