Cancer Support

I've been dealing with a family trauma of one kind or another, since my father died in 1999 and haven't taken a vacation since 2004. I realize I can't continue to draw on my diminishing strength and energy reserve. The anxiety attacks are coming with an increasing frequency and now I've developed a form of chondritis that is stress triggered. That is very frightening since it feels like a heart attack so I just hope that a quick injestion of an anti-inflamatory stops the pain so that I know it's just the chondritis.

My niece and nephew are urging me to take a break and visit them in Asheville, this summer, so that's my focus. My sister was able to join us for Thanksgiving dinner, and I just talked to my nephew (he's visiting from NC) and she was at the kitchen table, eating breakfast. We can only hope and pray that the radiation and spinal chemo will give her some relief, and some of her mobility back.

I keep visualizing the time I climed the Great Orme, in Northern Wales. Spectacular view of the ocean, in one direction, and my ancestral home, which is my favorite place in the world, in the other. It's where I've instructed my family to take my ashes, when the time comes.