I need to talk. [View all]

I don't have anyone I can talk to about my drinking problem.

It's been going off and on for a couple of years. I have a pattern: every other day, stop after work, get 3-4 mini bottles, a pint of something, and a Coke. Drink the minis and the Coke while driving home. Drink about half the pint at home. Lather, rinse, repeat.

My wife knows about the pints, although I try to hide it from her. I keep my pints in the closet behind my shoes, and that's where I drink, from the bottle. Sometimes I drink too much; I don't know it until the next day, because I can't remember shit about the night before. I'm sure some of you know the feeling. (Will you tell me some stories about that?)

Today is the latest day in the "that's it -- no more" category. But I know that as the end of the day approaches, I'm going to want to hit the liquor store on the way home. The pull is very strong.

Making it worse is that I'm trying to lose weight. I'm replacing my compulsive overeating with the drinking. Thank god I don't want to smoke.

Any advice/thoughts are welcome. I haven't ruled out AA, but taking that step would be so hard.