The DU Lounge

This is your trip. It's unlikely any of us can fix what you've feeling. But we can stand behind you, and hear you when you finally feel you can voice what is in your head. Most often when we are feeling alone, our problems seem much more vast than they might actually be. Sometimes when we share, we see another aspect that helps to bring things into focus and reduce the scale and scope. And it's possible that, when you're able to share with kind people, another shoulder or two under the load, it may become easier to bear.
I've been married for forty-five years to a woman I strive to deserve. I've always considered myself to be one who sees a problem and instinctively sets about for the solution ( I WAS a handy-man). I became aware that she didn't need me to be the man-on-it, and my attempts at solutions ignored her genius for taking care of herself. But the point I really missed was that what she really wanted was for me to listen, and making her feel heard was all she really needed (and, punching her Supervisor WASN'T).
I'm hoping this will pass before you have to endure much more pain, and Peace returns to a very deserving person.
For what it's worth, I'm a lurker, and we don't travel the same lane, but that distance might be helpful. I would be an Ear, if not a shoulder, if you needed.
Use me if you think it would help. Otherwise, I'll be here rooting for you.