how abusers lay the groundwork ahead of time to get away with their bullshit. I left my X before sunrise one morning. He sent me over 1000 emails the first year - and convinced family I was the abuser. It was bizarre. He died in 2021 from his self destruction. I will publish the emails some day.

Despite my earlier goddess comment I’m actually primarily Buddhist (totally supportive of earth religions though, and Christians/any others who are accepting) so getting caught up with a man like that that I merely thought I was going to have a typical/normal enough relationship with turned my world upside down.

I have a hard time wanting to see anyone in real pain or suffering, even acting that way in drama roles is uncomfortable without some decent meditation.

I wish aggressive Conservatives would get over themselves but sadly there is a lot of (what I used to resist calling) evil in the world confounding attempts to heal the planet and provide for everyone.

Glad to hear you made it through your ordeal though. I know *why* they do it (from a behavioral/biological/architectural standpoint) but it doesn’t make abuse and corruption easier to live with.