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undergroundpanther

(11,925 posts)
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 02:18 PM Apr 2013

I freaked out today

Trauma issues got to me,and I got triggered,got flashbacks and lost it.I hate PTSD and Dissociastive identity ,it just hurts.
Why is it abusers get away with so much? They destroy a person's soul,then everyone else makes believe it wasen't what it was or,minimizes it,excuses the perp and blames the victim. I'm in psych treatment,a day program to cope with all the damage done.

I hated flipping out today I feel bad about it,when my own mind abuses itself.

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I freaked out today (Original Post) undergroundpanther Apr 2013 OP
You need a hug. talkingmime Apr 2013 #1
thanks undergroundpanther Apr 2013 #3
Rape is not a sexual act. It's an act of violence. That's it. Violence. talkingmime Apr 2013 #4
I am glad you understand undergroundpanther Apr 2013 #6
I'm sorry you are having a terrible day. Sissyk Apr 2013 #7
Better next time. Keep going, keep learning. Voice for Peace Apr 2013 #2
I think undergroundpanther Apr 2013 #5
There are compassionate people here, Sissyk Apr 2013 #8
when we have been sexually abused, especially if it was ongoing in childhood, Voice for Peace Apr 2013 #10
I'm so glad you survived. Ilsa Apr 2013 #9
Message auto-removed Name removed Nov 2014 #11

undergroundpanther

(11,925 posts)
3. thanks
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 03:17 PM
Apr 2013

Now I got people trying to defame me now because I put up a post that declared all men are potential rapists,and it was removed, because people didn't bother to understand where I was coming from,then someone PM's me asking me to repost it..a banned post like that won't get me in trouble,..the denial crowd came and the hostile ones the ones that make light of rape and point out the female rapist.. why,why can't people see that a choice a potential victim cannot predict or know with any certainty is all that stands between a nice guy and a rapist. people lie,manipulate,and some don't care who gets hurt. some men are compassionate. but that potential remains.

Why is that rape is always a huge mean debate?

But I stand by my words,even though people don't like hearing it.Especially men.


Sometimes the world is just unbearable.

 

talkingmime

(2,173 posts)
4. Rape is not a sexual act. It's an act of violence. That's it. Violence.
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 03:22 PM
Apr 2013

It isn't just men. Women rape too. It's still violence, not sex.

I'm a guy and I have no tolerance for rape. I'd kill someone involved in the act. I have a 20" sword cane and I'd use it. Ther's no excuse for rape. None.

undergroundpanther

(11,925 posts)
6. I am glad you understand
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 03:28 PM
Apr 2013

and you would stop a rapist with that sword.I wish you could have been there for me,but regardless you will be there for someone and I respect you for that. I agree rape is intolerable but some people are always trying to get others to tolerate it or excuse it and to me that is just evil. Thanks for hating rape..

 

Voice for Peace

(13,141 posts)
2. Better next time. Keep going, keep learning.
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 03:16 PM
Apr 2013

I'm not going to hate myself any more, ever again.

I'm here for the child I was, to be the support
and the teacher. The comforter and the guide,
for the broken child in me still wanting and
trying to get well.

We can only go forward from this present
moment. Leave it, rest. Find the beautiful
innocence within you.

Sissyk

(12,665 posts)
8. There are compassionate people here,
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 04:34 PM
Apr 2013

underrgroundpanther. Just try to focus on them, okay?

And you have a great heart. Go with that. Don't let someone by pm talk you into doing something that may get you in trouble here, okay?

You are here.. That's what counts.

 

Voice for Peace

(13,141 posts)
10. when we have been sexually abused, especially if it was ongoing in childhood,
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 08:15 PM
Apr 2013

There is usually a sense that down deep in us
there is nothing but darkness, badness, ugliness,
dirtiness. Even if we strive to live like a saint,
the darkness is who we are. But it's a wrong belief.

Our original self is good, beautiful, and does not
change and remains innocent.
As long as there is breath, it is indestructible.
Can not be stolen or defiled. Can not be murdered.

It's a very simple self and we all have it.
We may deny it, reject it, over-analyze,
minimize and/or dismiss it, but we all have it.
There is much to explore there...
and it's the key to healing.

Do not ever despair, there is always a hopeful
place in you, but you have to look for it.
Try for it, care about it, wonder about it,
don't negate its existence. Look around inside
of you, it's there, it's a feeling.

It's like looking for the sun when it's raining
outside. WTF there's no goddam sun. But
it's there. And it's powerful. In you, in me.






Ilsa

(62,280 posts)
9. I'm so glad you survived.
Thu Apr 4, 2013, 07:00 PM
Apr 2013

I'm glad you are still here with us.

Do the therapy; it's a lot of work, but it helps. It takes time, but it gets better.

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