Not sure how to ask this question...

so I'm sorry in advance if it's awkward. Does anyone here have any resource or online community suggestions for someone newly interested in wicca/paganism for solitary practice? Those are such umbrella terms that I'm not sure it's correct.

I'm old and have never engaged in any particular practice, but I've reached a point in my life that I'm pulled toward a very specific path: magical writing. That's what I'm calling it but don't know the proper term.

The reason I'm called toward this is because, in the past as a ghostwriter of two novels, I had the (at the time) disconcerting experience of having what I wrote manifest. It's the one creative activity where I lose myself and get into an almost meditative state. Oh, it just dawned on me that that is called automatic writing. I don't necessarily want to channel but rather have a practice over which I have more control - a more intentional practice, if that makes sense.

I do have several books on Celtic magic and recently even got the Rider-Waite tarot deck even though I have never been called to tarot before. So I'm wanting to develop a practice but would appreciate some guidance.

Thoughts? Suggestions? Thanks!