Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.[7][8]

Dylan Thomas. (who chose to burn down before he burnt out.)

And energy never dies. It just re-forms.

I am just sad and disappointed that I my 2010 heart attack did not let me go while I was still disillusioned. Obama's election had made me think this country was finally moving out of the dark ages and I felt so much hope for the future. And I was so wrong. The American people are as ugly at heart as it was when I was a kid. No progress whatsoever over my lifetime.

It was a transformational presence of peace, comfort, serenity, love and home.

I was no longer confused. I was no longer alone. I could feel embedded trauma, regret and loss washing away.

I experienced the presence of God. It was overwhelming and occurred in a way that I just don’t have language to fully describe.

There’s no question in my mind that I went to ‘the other side’, and merged with and had a conversation with the Creator of all that is. I returned with a fraction of that unconditional love, which has never left me.

Doesn't this sound like everything will be all right? That whatever mechanism caused life to emerge from inanimate matter prevails in the end?

that there is a big difference between you and Trumpers.

Many Trumpers have been very vocal about relishing the suffering that they know they are directly causing. They hate and want people to suffer because of what they look like, where they came from, or who they love. They have created a hierarchy of people which is based on gender, skin color, country of origin, and sexual orientation and, no matter what, they consider themselves the top of that hierarchy.

You do not hate people for those reasons. You do not have an arbitrary hierarchy that puts you at the top and everyone who is different from you below you. You have come to hate specific groups of people for direct actions they have and are taking which are explicitly designed to hurt other people just because those other people are different.

Trumpers hate the group regardless of behavior.
You hate the behavior and, because entire groups are engaging in those behaviors, you are coming to hate the group.

You are not "rejoicing in owning" Trumpers - you are rejoicing in Trumpers experiencing the direct repercussions of actions they have taken which have the intention of harming others (or benefiting themselves above others).

When a child misbehaves, a parent punishes them to teach them that their behavior is a problem. Bad parents hit their children. Better parents give them a time out. The Trumpers have misbehaved. The system is hitting them. You have no control over that punishment, you are not causing that punishment, and you can't stop that punishment. You do recognize that they should be punished if there is any chance they will learn anything. It would not be your choice to punish them in this way because you know that pain and suffering are not always the best teachers. But that doesn't mean you don't see them as deserving of some punishment. Given the magnitude of the pain and suffering that their misbehavior has caused others, it is normal to not feel a lot of compassion for the pain and suffering they are causing themselves.

That doesn't mean that it feels good - for liberals not feeling compassion for others feels very uncomfortable. But it does not mean you are as bad as a Trumper.

I resent having to spend my final years fighting against a fascist regime my MAGA family members voted into power.