Updated- Feeling kind of blue tonight so going to bed early for me.

On the cousins- Ron passed away last night and Cathy entered hospice this morning. 😢

In addition to all the anxiety and sadness about what's going on in the world right now I found out today, one of my cousins who has been battling cancer was told the treatments are no longer working and she is terminal. One of her brothers already has cancer and he doesn't have much time left either. Their Mom is 96 and in a nursing home. She's still quite mentally sharp, but I can't imagine what this news is going to do to her. She's all that's left of our parents' generation.

There were 22 of we cousins on my Mom's side of the family. One died of leukemia at age 3, my cousin Bill died at age 45 of stomach cancer, and now we are beginning to lose more of our generation. I know it's what happens in life, but knowing it, doesn't stop the sadness.

I still have family, a few good friends, and my pets, but it just seems like so many of the people I loved most in the world are already gone, as well as many things that brought me joy. I am grateful for those people and things that are left but the ache and loneliness just gets overwhelming sometimes.