I'm a little confused. Thank you for the warm welcome !

Yes it's very helpful.

teen years. I came right out of high school into the professional music business. I was immediately rubbing elbows with people I had idolized. Rejection is the hardest thing to overcome and I was rejected by some of the very people I thought would approve of me because I approved of them. I started out living in a fantasy world and eventually reality came crashing down around me. I was idealistic and thought everyone's opinion mattered. I became very depressed, had panic attacks and took mood altering drugs to no avail.

What happened is that I eventually came to a realization that I had to work threw the weeds to find the flowers and that I could not save the world. I've also came to realize and appreciate the approval I did receive and that helped me grow as a person. I am thankful every day I wake up and can take another breath.

I hope you overcome your depression. It's not worth punishing yourself over what someone else thinks. Changing peoples minds is not easy and usually a long and futile process. Life is too short Peace.

I'll keep doing my best and I wish you the best also.

I know the depression, the effectiveness of my meds over the years waxes and wanes. At my worst this depression is a black hole that sucks the life out of everything.

I may have been fragile at some point in my life, but that's buried under at least forty years of scar tissue or hidden by autistic spectrum insensitivity. I'm not sure. The things that set me off don't seem to be related to what anyone says about me, it's more about what's happening. I HATE flying, I don't like parties, I'm constantly fidgeting, and all my clothes have to feel the same...

...enough of that, it's nice to see you here!

I wish you the very best on your journey also.