I think you're flirting with disaster each time you drink

Quit drinking. If you're that sensitive to it, it could very well kill you.

I say I only drink a couple now when I do, usually just to watch a game.

The blackouts I describe took place in 2008.

Basically I took stock one night thinking of some notable life moments.

All this was from 2008. I'm at a very low risk for developing a drinking problem, its just that at-the-time there were times were I was a basket case socially so I sometimes drank just to have normal social interactions, it isn't so much of a problem any more.

I think 1 time I got I overextended myself drinking when the summer heat kicked my ass--see I never came across another substance that made me feel so ill quit like alcohol, too much I'm slurring, can't walk straight, my day ends. If I'm a little too drunk, I quickly want to be sober again.

Alcohol is nice but the problem with alcohol is too much alcohol. Even then, I'll drink once in a blue moon but it isn't something I seek out. My mom's roommate was an alcoholic who always had vodka in stock and always offered me drinks which is why the summer heat + hangover was an issue, other than that it's usually been a 24 ounce.

Its not that I'm trying to justify my drinking, I hardly ever drink. I don't like alcohol very much, so many other substances don't effect my memory, judgment, coordination, and aren't as nauseating.

I really don't know why I did share what I did but the thing is I can't do anything to change what happened and it is a one sided view against me, there were so many stressors and was badly unfairly mistreated, and I was far from the only one to develop a drinking problem almost immediately following deployment.

Like I said, I can't change anything but I would do things differently, a big reason why it is personally unlikely for me to a develop a drinking problem is I like to be in control of my actions. I don't want to wind up in a prison cell or worse over something I can't remember.