I didn't want to stop. 50 years as an accountant. I didn't take social security until I was 71, so my benefit was much higher than most my age. Hang in there. Het a hobby. Help others thru their similar sorrow. I'm sorry i can't give you more advice.

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Had I been in my 70s, Id be pissed but prob ok and retire.

Ty for reading

ETA I was 45. 22 yrs of work stretching b4 me. I'm sorry you were let go from a job you lived. Layoffs hurt

struggling for years. Terrifying to not have health insurance at my age.

I had to b4 Medicare kicked in. It was free to me

kicked to medicaid in PA. But medicaid requires under 65 to work 30 hours/week. Or take early social security.

But its mostly regret and depression

After about 3 years, it's begun to calm down, especially now since I feel the need to look after my ageing husband even closer. But I LOVED my job, loved what I was doing, loved my coworkers, and loved the National Guard and Reserve students I worked with, both locally and overseas. What took me out was disability and asking for 2 days remote work, even tho working at the office or at home meant I was working on WiFi. I just got more done at home... and I could do it in my own hours, laying down to rest as I needed. I just ended up eventually having a manager who was conflict-averse. I did wonder how he made through the Army with that attitude, or maybe it was women he had a problem with... (sigh)

I finally determined one aspect of my resentment came from not feeling needed anymore... that's why I think it's lightened up some now that hubby needs me more, and my grandson has also moved in. I have people to look after, and that does make a difference for me. I gave up looking for a job (more or less)... the only one I checked out turned out to be a damned scam. I figure when you can no longer trust the damned headhunters, the world doesn't need me!

Schedule, interesting work, good salary, dressed in expensive clothing I could finally afford, went to Atlanta to do things on the weekends...

My bff lived across the street... life was good and i didn't realize it was fleeting and i didn't appreciate it at the time.

Had i known Id be let go, Id tried harder to get an academic job

for a consortium of libraries in KC. Loved every minute of that, as well... the only place I ever worked where I could come in to work bleary eyed and yawning because I'd been up the night before reading "just a few more chapters"... and most everyone else looks the same as me! (LOL)

health than we think or is studied.

Many, many hugs to you.

Today is a bad, bad day. I think I'm having a panic attack. I have no idea how I got through some of this. I've always tried to be a good person and just feel like life has shit all over me. Like the next thing to happen will be cancer or something. My partner and relatives are not helping and borderline abusive.

out messages to The Universe seeking forgiveness for any harm I may have done to someone else. Why didn't I do this or why didn't I do that? I could have/should have...Then one day I decided that I am not going to allow the rest of my life to be consumed by the past. It is not easy but I truly believe that I am stronger than anything THIS world can throw at me.

Keep on trucking XanaDUer2; you ARE a good person. Believe in yourself, believe in your strength. Life has thrown some bombs at you but you're still standing.

Hugs, my fellow traveler.

My line has always been, "What Chinese philosopher did I offend, and how can I make recompense?"