Bullying is so destructive. I truly hope you get you desire back and can put those people out of your life. Know, there is someone out there that will appreciate your art and talents.
Know you can always come here for comfort.

I get the no motivation. But great art comes from anger as well. Determine what you have the most of, and transform it into art. Don't give up.

Sadness and hopelessness.

....you can care for others.

Group of people, who followed me all over the internet to bully me, sent me abusive emails, tried to scam me, sent me abusive texts, harassed me by phone.

It seems to have stopped now that I went no contact with my entire family of origin, but my sense of safety in the world is entirely gone, and it’s impossible for me to envision any scenario in which I will ever feel happiness again or ever feel I can have a friend again.

A number of them, including one person on DU, asked me for my art and when I sent it, ghosted me. A pattern of disrespecting me, using my generous nature against me to hurt me.

It broke my spirit entirely.

I no longer want to give anything to the world or make a positive difference.

I no longer want to let anyone close to me.

Each day I wake up and think, damn, I’m still alive.

Please don't despair, happiness can be found In the little things in life: A great cup of coffee, finishing a really good book, a walk around the block...and there is always DU. Socialize with us.

bullying you because of your art is, no doubt, jealous of your talent.

Please talk to your doctor right away. Depression is a medical condition, probably aggravated by the bullying you experienced.

Good luck to you!

Just remember to breathe …

You are enough

If not, consider fostering one. The love of an animal is very healing!

don’t let anyone take it away from you.

You are a valued member of this community, we care about you . Try not to let mean spirited jealous people denigrate you and take away your joy. Is there someone you can talk to who can help you over this rough time? That cookie recipe is on my to bake list, hubby loves soft chocolate chip cookies.

Edit: and sorry for not being more helpful (as many posters have been so far). But - the post(s) are quite disturbing - and I'm really in no way qualified ... Other than to suggest real help. And hopefully from the proper places