Fucking monster

small animals, all God's creatures, had to endure pain inflicted by this monstrous sociopath. Personally, I believe justice will be done.

It makes me so sad he hurt so many other people and animals.

Part of me wishes I would have gotten a gun and stopped him from hurting others.

I wish you a long life of healing.

NPR, who explained a philosophical perspective during hard times, that connected various trials for me.
When things are not going your way, he said. Bake bread. It will give you purpose.
Should that not work, he suggested to take to the loom. It will require some devotion.
Best path forward.

The last couple of days I have painted pet portraits for my stepsister.

I cuddled a lot with my kitty Mr. Bobo and fed peanuts to the crows and they cawed their joy for me.

I can't even imagine what this was like. I'm glad you survived and are here to tell your story, but the best thing of all would be for you not to have this story to tell. The fact that you are here and posting makes me believe you somehow survived this, but I imagine it hasn't been easy.

Sending you total compassion, empathy and everything good.

The dog and cat did not deserve the treatment. Very much of your story is my story. You did nothing to deserve the pain and suffering . Neither did the other kids. YOU are loveable . You are strong. Don't let your father win by making you feel you are at fault. You are brave and strong for putting up all that shit. A kid, at any age, deserves to be loved. As I said , I know your story all to well. Seek peace in your own heart for what he put you through. I didn't cry when my father died and I won't when my mother dies. You hold the truth in your mind and heart. You know that your dad was not normal.or loving. You should have no guilt for what you went though. You are loved. Some people should not have kids, Kids need to be loved and you are loved. Don't you forget that. He was not capable of loving you. And like my parents refused to get help and I owed them something for having me. You deserved better . and now the final answer is yours. Will it bother you not to care about him.I don't want to mean about your father. But he did lay the groundwork for all that he has done. Deep in your heart you know the type of person he was. I would tell him about the animals the toxcity of him before he dies. If you don't you will feel guilty . But remember you are a strong person. a brave person and a loveable person. Deb

You went through this too.

He says I am sick and need help because I went no contact with him and the rest of the abusive family.

But I think he is the one who is sick.

Thank you. 💙💙💙

I wasn't there for my father on his death bed either, so I understand.

When my father dies I will play this song.

someone is always here to listen.

Didn’t really have anyone to talk to about this because my husband is like, well, he beat his wives and little kids, why are you shocked and upset he did that to a little dog, didn’t you know that’s how he is?

But somehow learning that, and learning about his mistreatment of the kitten, upset me a great deal. I wasn’t able to shrug my shoulders about it like my husband did.

So I’m really grateful DU let me talk about it and everyone was so supportive. Thank you all. 💙💙💙💙💙

There's a few of here that have had experience with an abusive/unsavory parent.


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monster. May he receive everything he deserves.

You do not need to forgive him. He is indeed a monster. You do, however, need to forgive yourself for feeling even for just one second that you deserved any of that. Please know that you are loved, that you are a valued member of this community, and that you deserve a good and happy life, without carrying the dead weight of this monster with you.

Your DU family is here for you. Lean as hard as you need.

Are so clear eyed tells me a lot. I'm an animal lover, even wild animals, and I can't fathom the horror and pain you feel. I would not be able to deliver more pain to someone who is dying regardless of how much of a monster he was. But it's your reality, your horror story. I only wish you an end to the pain and sadness. Someday. Whatever gives you peace now is your right. I'm glad you could tell your story here to the people who can offer insight and some semblance of "family."

Saying I was sorry for how things worked out and I loved him.

He doesn’t want me back in his life because I defied him by going no contact and confronting him about some of the continued abuse.

When he dies I will listen to this song.

How appropriate. Think I'm going to weep. And I ain't a big crier. May whatever god you worship bless you.
I will be thinking about you for a long time.

trying to reach them is the root cause of a great deal of the emotional and mental anguish and suffering that is experienced. Every person has the right to walk away without a backward glance from those trying to destroy them.

die sometime." No cards or calls during the 25 treatments.My whole family is/are toxic. After 69years of verbal , sexual ,
emotional and physical abuse. I have gone no contact. I love them, but I do not love them. Black eyes, called a _hore,babyteeth knocked out, rifle held to my head and told I was going to have my brains blown out. It is hard for few people to understand the hell. As women would we let our SO other to do this to us? No, we would walk. No one deserves the abuse. And women dont need to excuse their abusers even if they are family. If I had stayed I would have been destroyed.more then I was. As many people have been.

treatments, and how awful they have been to you both. Quite frankly, may they all rot in hell. And may you and your husband find peace and health and love.

You went no contact. You did the right thing even though I know it is so hard.

I know we always keep hoping they will change or that there is some small kernel of decency in them. And we get our hearts broken again and again.

I’m just so sorry. You deserved so much better.

physical. emotional and mental abuse can you honestly say you would return to your SO ?

Not sure you meant this for me?

and need repair. May not be repairable.

Around him.

Me with my father in Montana when I was four.

I think he didn’t want to be a bad person, but he was.

He will need a lot of healing when he passes.

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By this age I had been raped regularly for a couple of years already.

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I would suspect he would finally get his comeuppance.

My mother tried to kill him before I was born, but the weapon misfired and then it was taken out of her hands.

She aimed center mass. Montana gal, she knew how to hunt and handle a weapon.

I hope you have peace after all you’ve conquered. 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

And every day since I got out of my childhood home, I have thought, oh, man, I am so glad I’m not in that situation anymore.

Life seems pretty easy once you grow up in something like that.

The only hard parts are, sometimes it’s hard not to internalize the abuse and succumb to self-hatred, and sometimes I feel a lot of anxiety about things that could happen, because I know the world can be a very bad place.

Today I was just feeling so much sorrow for my stepsisters, stepmom, and those defenseless pets. I felt like I needed to talk about it and I was so glad for DU and all of you kind people.

I feel guilt too like I should have killed him because then he wouldn’t have hurt anyone else. But I know killing is wrong, it’s just…I feel like I should have stopped him, somehow.

I hope you are free of him soon.

Atrocities he has committed.

I guess I hope god can change him and heal him after he dies because lord knows none of us ever had any influence on him, even though we all tried.

and kick that monster to the curb in whatever way you have to... getting these horrors off your chest, KNOWING he's a vile human being unworthy of forgiveness or understanding.

THAT'S for the beast's Maker to decide when he finally departs this mortal plane.

Every new atrocity I hear about, I am shocked. My husband says I should know my father is like that and not be shocked, but I still am, and sickened,

I feel so sorry for all of them.

Changed him was when he was arrested. After that he was still super abusive to all the women and children in his life, holding loaded guns to their heads etc., but he was careful not to leave evidence.

This person is dead now.

That said, I rather recently discovered what forgiveness is.

It is a bittersweet thing to have to learn no matter when in life.

It provides you with a form of freedom.

I hope you can find it some day.

Hang-in there

I learned my stepsisters and innocent animals suffered terribly, and I feel sorrow about that and some self-blame wishing I could have saved them from him.

I really tried. I told their Mom again and again, you must leave him, he’s not going to change, you must get yourself and your children away from him. But she wasn’t ready to hear what I had to say, and told me I was a bad daughter for saying such things.

No, it’s not that I haven’t forgiven. It’s that I’m still working through a lot of feelings, especially when I learn of atrocities I had not heard of before. It hits me hard when I hear of new stuff.

Neither here nor there, you guys remember the “we had to destroy the village in order to save it?” That was not my father in the news clip saying that, but my father was basically responsible for that happening. As an S-3 in the 9th Inf Div he advised the generals making the decisions and that’s what he recommended and that’s what they ordered.

So my dad was the, “we had to destroy the village in order to save it” guy and maybe that more than anything else tells you all you need to know.

I am so glad you survived his abuse. All he has done is on him, not on you. To me forgiveness is not a right--it is a gift--even if someone has asked you for it. Unless he is willing to own his guilt and make amends, in my opinion, he deserves nothing.
I do ask you to not blame yourself, however. You were not in any way responsible for his actions, especially since you didn't know what had happened to those poor animals.
You will be in my thoughts. Many hugs to you, my friend.