Today I came to a, not sure what to call it, a certain sense of something.

That's terribly vague but
I had a recent experience that - at least today, time will tell
now feels like it gave me what I need to die un-wracked by regret
(not that I have any plans to die.)
It's an encouraging and liberating feeling.

My life has often lead me to wonder if I was cursed by the gods,
much taken from me before I ever had a say in anything,
many unmet hopes and aspirations,
many painful memories.

But this new memory, at least for today, makes up for it all